raining.

hellluuuu.

guess who's back? yes my precious hp. i was so happy i swear there have been an uncontrollable outburst of emotion (read:scream).

on wednesday i didn't feel that good (same goes when i was in sg last month, had to take cab alone from abacus plaza to orchard road). i wanted to puke, faint, shivering all the way. blame it to the mother nature. yesterday was the jaya jusco member sale at sunway pyramid. lucky me and my dad, we went and what a good bargain! but i didn't want to bore my dad with the typical eena (gone crazy with the word 'sale' itself) so i just let him enjoying himself with the golf stuff. hehe. now i've got myself RM50 parkson voucher and RM40 jaya jusco voucher.

i'm leaving for sg this sunday. this time around we choose mas and park royal for lodging. i believe the park royal is somewhere near the arab street? so, anything that requires shopping treat, i'm totally fine with it.

there's a new giant supermarket here in kota damansara. a very big one. with jco donut inside it. omg i like! i'm contemplating to go today with my housemate.

i just discovered one thing. one thing i dislike. hate is such a strong word. so i use dislike/hate whatever which one. i don't like people yelling, be it with reason/without reason. i just hate when people lift their voices up. even for a small thing. i don't fancy that kind of high pitches. it's either i'm out of that room/situation or i tend to say shut the hell up your voice is killing me, if i have the guts. yeah, basically i hate to hear people fighting over nothing. not my cup of tea.

dang i miss yuri already ;(

p/s : this 19" dekstop is getting on my nerves. i have to start practicing caution (in case colleagues or worse, my boss start looking at what i'm currently doing). i'm doomed. yeaa and that's why saya tak ym ye.

tell him.

I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Should I
Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

I'll
Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has to go

Never let him go

i am new.

i'm so caught up with work right now. with me being the scripter. argh. it's no good since i've zero knowledge (okay i lied but c++.. guys!!! help me and i'll love you forever). i have to modify and extract some scripts which i'm totally screwed, just wait for it to happen and pray for the miracle to get it done.

meanwhile, of what had happened last friday, i had fun throwing the green roll balls. yes, our group managed to get the last place but booooo ;( there were no prizes given for that (we were fooled damnit).

yay time to go back.

fck.

you have no idea how tense i am right now.

earlier this morning i feel something's fishy. but i don't know what or why. so i just let it be.

i had lunch with my colleagues and i didn't feel like talking. at all. i just kept quiet and smiled all the way. seriously, mood swings? after talking to shima, still, doesn't feel right. so i went online and sms-ed dayah, ainil, fara and asmida about the trip to miri since air asia is having promotion. so there i found our perfect date to fly. 11sep-13sep. confirmed. me, my bf, dayah and fara. it was all good.. not until i found out the request tac no has got to be sent to my previous 017 number. so there i was, wasting my one hour searching for a RM60 return tickets to miri, wasting my hp credits (calling and smsing them like mad) with vain in the end. that's not just it. later my colleague im, and said i look pale and quiet today and asked me to go to the doctor. i know something's not right with me today. i can feel the anger waiting to burst out anytime.

i'm so pissed off right now and i can go on till midnight. pffft

el cheapo.

heh. it's funny when you said you didn't care yet you still find a space to write about it. does it mean you still care? OMG. please don't because i really think it should be over by now.. no?

for friends, just a quick note. i've changed my 0175525 to 014369 (happy) for 3-5days only. if you wish to contact me, please use the happy number. after that duration, you can contact me using the old number because i'm changing to celcom and it takes time to do so. sorry for any incovenience (ceeewah! :p)

on a brighter note, my two best friends and i have already booked the return tickets to jakarta next year! woohoo. RM70. dirt cheap. i'm thinking to go to miri too for RM60.. hmm. i want to meet shima.. syg jom? while the colleagues checked for HK tickets yesterday and asked me to join them too. yeah, broke la aku thn dpn.

we have bowling this evening. later shogun buffet at OU. the winner and the loser both get prizes. how cool is that? i've never bowled fyi so i'm aiming for the loser prize! wish me luck.

warisan.

Anak kecil main api
Terbakar hatinya yang sepi
Airmata darah bercampur keringat
Bumi dipijak milik orang

Nenek moyang kaya raya
Tergadai seluruh harta benda
Akibat sengketa sesamala kita
Cita lenyap di arus zaman

Indahnya bumi kita ini
Warisan berkurun lamanya
Hasil mengalir ke tangan yang lain
Pribumi merintih sendiri

Masa depan sungguh kelam
Kan lenyap peristiwa semalam
Tertutuplah hati terkunci mati
Maruah peribadi dah hilang

Kini kita cuma tinggal kuasa
Yang akan menentukan bangsa
Bersatulah hati bersama berbakti
Pulih kembali harga diri

Kita sudah tiada masa
Majulah dengan gagah perkasa
Janganlah terlalai teruskan usaha
Melayu kan gagah di Nusantara

i love this song! my practicum F6P7 (during penang matriculation) sang this, we had to perform for patriotic day and someone suggested this song. with syed playing the guitar, they we were.. trying so hard.. munching each words (less time, less rehearse, hardly remember the lyrics) which i think it works? because we actually won the 2nd place. haha. i miss those days.

to you and you, sorry i don't like secrets. sorry i don't understand what's the point and why and i'm sorry for not being understandable enough to patiently wait for it. to have a second thought, i've the least bit interest when "my schedule" comes later and that you don't have the intention to tell me. sorry for wasting your time. you said what you wanted to say and i've made up my mind. this is not my problem, this is not about me, this is not about friendship, this is about that, it's not my time yet to interfere. i don't want to look so desperate when i know you girls aren't giving me any chances this time soon. again sorry for the last monday. like what you said, everything happens for a reason right? here, i present you my reason. i wish you girls the best ahead. take care.

p/s : sometimes, the people that we actually thought knew us inside and out, are the ones who put their back on us. so what can we do? dissapear. they don't deserve us.

bff shit.

a small matter.

but when it comes to friends. i don't think it's that small to neglect. like what i used to say "aku hanya ada masa untuk sape yang ada masa untuk aku".

i'm tired of chasing everyone. goodbye.

GUYS.

what gives?

throw rocks at them.

bottled up.

today kicks off with bumping into a cute girl. i don't know why but that just made my day. sounds so lesbo right. if i were a man, she'd better not guilty herself. heh.

ah. another email asking the five of us to go to singapore, yet again this coming december. nicely knowing that one of them would be lina. but she doesn't want to go due to her passport. argh. i'm so stressed out.

ema asks us to go to PD this coming saturday. the thing is, both efa and i are penniless. we'll see.

tonight! james bond with the bf.

lost.

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I'm in a cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost
Every river that you try to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing stops
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

lovey dovey.

i have this personal care benefits that need to be cleared out by end of the year. i'm thinking to bring my whole family (this includes my bro's family and my sis's family) for a vacation at lumut.

i've a thought to cut my hair. with bangs in the front. i wonder does it suit my face? who cares!

my two best friends said that i'm different. in term of this new relationship i have. "sejak bile ko macam ni?". hehe. i guess it's a good thing.. no?